Day 5 – Journal

Dear Bennett,

Today was a busy day.  We raked, painted, leaf blew, pressure washed.  Darcy and I played Rummy, Legos and read books.  We rode bikes at the church across the street.  We went to the store.  I’m exhausted.  I should feel fulfilled after a day like today.      I miss you.  I miss the chaos that you brought into our lives.  We would never have been able to do half of what we did today if you were here, and I wish that were the case.  I hate this reality.  I hate this ‘new normal.’  I hate a lot of things about this new life.  Hate is where I’m comfortable, it’s much easier than sad.

Author: sheriroaf

Sheri Roaf is the mother of four wonderful children who turned to blogging after her 17 month old son Bennett passed away unexpectedly. Through her writing she has found a way to help herself and her family move forward in the face of tragedy. View all posts by sheriroaf