Need

I need to write, it’s been far too long. I can tell because sleep has become a problem again. I lay here and listen to Bailey sneeze, Toby wheeze and Parker snore. I’m so jealous of their easy rest.

I need to sleep, Darcy doesn’t have school tomorrow and I want to be able to enjoy that. I’ve really missed her being at school again. We had such a fun two weeks of playing Lego’s, reading, playing Wii, baking and painting nails. I truly loved every moment of it. I wish I could freeze time and keep her this way forever.

We have lot’s of change headed our way in 2015. After a year of trying to hold it all together, change scares me. It seems complicated, messy and scary. I used to be good at it. Now I just don’t know.

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2 thoughts on “Need”

  1. You are still good at it. Change is scary for all of us. I felling a little guilty for being one step back these last few months – my own survival mode. I’m here for you and need you more than you know. We will never forget or loose the past but embracing the future is like walking on thin ice. Exciting, daring, fun and wonderful when you feel it’s safe – but scary as hell anticipating a crack or break.

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    1. Thin ice-great analogy, couldn’t have said it better. I’m excited for the future and terrified at the same time. A part of me truly hopes nothing this bad could happen again, but that would be foolish. No one is exempt from tragedy or the amount of times it will affect your life.

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