17 Days of Benny – Day 4

Day 4 – Month 4

By the time mid August rolled around, I was getting the call to go back to work.  Parker had just moved the shop to a larger location (across the parking lot) and we were both pretty busy.  I was sad.  I didn’t want to go back and leave my summer of fun with my kiddos.  I was lucky to go back part time so that I was able to enjoy time during the week with the kids.  I knew before Benny was born what it was like to work 40+ hour weeks with Darcy and decided it wasn’t what I wanted.  Parker and I looked over the finances and knew it was going to be tight, but that we would manage.  I didn’t want to miss a minute of Benny growing up.  Looking back, I’m so glad that this was the decision that we made.

Darcy had started to enjoy being an older sister around this time because she could get reactions from Benny.  She was the constant performer and he was her audience.  We started to notice him studying us intently.  You could see the wheels turning in his little mind.  He was still the super laid back easy baby and was an awesome sleeper, but a terrible napper.  Sandy and I called him the 42 minute man.  He would wake up as soon as you started to get into a task or project.  It was no fun!

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Author: sheriroaf

Sheri Roaf is the mother of four wonderful children who turned to blogging after her 17 month old son Bennett passed away unexpectedly. Through her writing she has found a way to help herself and her family move forward in the face of tragedy.

5 thoughts on “17 Days of Benny – Day 4”

    1. I think more than any of us know. She’s good at putting on a brave face, but I know she’s hurting right now as she begins to get ready for the new little dude. She talks about him possibly dying too and it’s so hard to hear. She’s far too wise.


      1. Unfortunately she knows how delicate life is, far too young. With that said, she will also be able to appreciate it and her time with the new baby more than most siblings ever would. I’m sure she hurts still, and always will. A pain that you can’t take away from your child is agonizing. I’m just glad that she will also get to experience a different kind of joy again, and you too. I saw this today and thought of you…


    1. Haha, just a precursor of what was to come. Her smile is what kills me in that picture, she’s so over the top happy. I miss him too.


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