Ok, so I’m starting off this year’s ‘Capture Your Grief’ late. I’m exhausted, having just walked 60+ miles in Philly and then hopped in the car to arrive home and deal with 2 kiddos alone in the middle of the night. Parker is still down in Philly for some car stuff for the week. If things seem disjointed, bitchy or all over the place, this week, you’ll kniw it’s because I’m holding down the fort alone this week. But I digress.
This is supposed to be a photo exercise, but I found the topics lend themselves to writing as well. When I’m done, I want to go back and see this years CYG against last years. How have I grown? Where do I seem stuck? Grief is a process.
CYG-Day 1: Sunrise
Day 1 is supposed to be a sunrise picture. I never would have taken one before because I was not a morning person. Over the last few weeks I’ve been carving out ‘me time’ early in the morning to get some training walks in. I thought I would hate it, boy was I wrong! I love being able to get outside and plan my day in my head before anyone else in the house is even awake. I feel so spoiled having that time to myself first thing in the day. I’m enjoying the fresh air and how it helps me to sleep better at night. So, no, I do not have a sunrise picture per se, but more of a daily sunrise exercise/meditation to start my day off right.
CYG-Day 2: Intention
This is a tough one for me to answer because there is always so much that I want to do and never enough time. So here’s a list to try to simplify. I intend to honor Bennett’s memory by:
-Continuing to work with The Greg Hill Foundation to raise money for other families affected by tragedy
-Loving my husband, even when I don’t want to (just trying to be honest here)
-Spending more time playing with my children and less time doing housework, using cell, etc.
-Continuing to talk about Bennett with family and friends
-Trying to be a more patient and kind person. I’ve spent too much time caring what others think and sweating the small stuff.