What I wouldn’t give to be back in this moment. To be sitting here and enjoying Bennett’s first bites of Birthday cake with Darcy and Daddy. Like everything though, he had to do it big, over the top. Why just eat the ice cream cake when you can taste it, I mean really taste it with your eyelashes and your nose and your hair? That blue stuff doesn’t come off very easily in the tub either. But that’s how Benny did everything, all the way.
I had stopped giving him tubs because he refused to sit. He wanted to stand and hold the shower hose and be showered like his big sis, all before he was a year. It was like bathing a greased pig with big blue eyes. Such independence and spirit. I think the hardest thing is wondering how this huge personality has just disappeared. I just don’t get it, I cannot wrap my head around it. How did we end up here?