Parker proposed to me with this song nearly 9 years ago. While he’s always been musically inclined, he learned to play guitar to propose to me. To say he played it beautifully, perfectly would be far from the truth, but that’s not our style anyway. I laughed at every flub and curse word that came out of his mouth and the moment was so perfectly ours.
I love how the song is a promise of a life of love. The lyrics meant so much to me back then, ‘I wanna honor your mother, I want to learn from your pa’. It was like the song was written for us. It was our first dance at our wedding.
I heard the song the other day and was shocked to listen to the lyrics now and how much they have truly illustrated our life. I felt like Parker kept every one of those promises that he made those 9 years ago. He has truly stood by me at my worst and held me up. He has made my life as easy as he could over the last 14 months. I’m still home while he has worked so hard for our family. I haven’t known what it’s like to be taken care of since my mom became sick all those years ago. I never let Parker take care of me before, I was far too independent and felt I had something to prove. Grief and trauma have changed me, it’s changed our marriage.
Hearing the song made me smile and cry. This wasn’t what we planned when we started out, no one ever expects something like this. I was sad for who we used to be. So many bad things have happened and so much has changed. As I thought about it though, one thing has stayed constant – us. I know it’s only been 14 months and we still have a long road ahead, but I’m hopeful.
‘We’ll follow the rainbow, wherever the four winds blow; there’ll be a new day, coming your way’.